14 – Appreciation Epiphanies

— Jack Canfield and others suggest starting each day with appreciations, and I determined to stay out of my two-month funk, so I began with the basic litany:

I appreciate having electricity.
I appreciate having running water.
I appreciate having a house.
I appreciate having a husband.
I appreciate having a comfortable bed.
I appreciate being alive.
I appreciate my two daughters who are wonderful.

After five minutes, I began to get bored so wondered if I could keep doing appreciations and be productive. The result fascinated me.

I appreciate that I have so many ideas I can’t do them all.
I appreciate that many of my ideas would be fun but are expensive and even impractical.
I appreciate that my husband and I have different opinions.
I appreciate that what is important to me isn’t important to my husband.
I appreciate that I get bored easily.
I appreciate that I love challenges and love coming up with ideas.
I appreciate that some of my ideas truly excite me, but might result in causing others harm.
I appreciate that I care hugely about everyone and everything.
I appreciate that I’m smiling.
I appreciate that I don’t know what to do to remodel our house.
I appreciate that I am interested and willing to make the house more to my liking.

For an hour I walked the neighborhood, appreciating that some people fix up their houses and some don’t. I appreciated that some may not have the time, money or interest. During the walk I had epiphanies of what I could do to our house that made me laugh or ponder.

I shared with my husband what I was doing and he said, “At least it makes you light. That’s a nice change.” Then he appreciated me and broke into a grin. I’m still smiling and laughing an hour later, even after dipping after hearing about drama and mayhem.

I appreciate that I’m a sensitive soul and get upset hearing all this drama and anger.
I appreciate that my husband can almost laugh at other people’s craziness.
I appreciate that I get a bit crazy hearing other people’s craziness.
I appreciate that I only want to feel laughter and joy.
I appreciate that life is so much easier and productive when I come from appreciation.
I appreciate that I manifested a playful, fun, adoring marriage after two hours of non-stop appreciations.

I APPRECIATE JACK CANFIELD, HIS TEAM (ESPECIALLY PATTY AUBREY) AND MY CLASSMATES FOR HOLDING A SAFE PLACE THIS PAST WEEK WHILE I SLOGGED THROUGH UPSET, ANGER, FEAR, PRIDE, DEPRESSION, OVERWHELM, INADEQUACY, etc.

I appreciate that I never gave up even though I was afraid I might.
I appreciate that I gave myself a long leash to entangle myself.

I appreciate that this morning I got up almost immediately and didn’t let myself fall back asleep implying that what I do doesn’t make a difference, that I can’t improve my life, that I shouldn’t care and not even try. Part of me didn’t want to get up and in truth, I vacillated three times because I didn’t have enthusiasm, didn’t have a plan, and considered escaping back into dreams. But my quiet voice said, “Get up,” and while part of me worried and doubted, a stronger voice said, “You are not going to slip into depression; get up, get dressed, make your bed, make the other bed, do appreciations.”

And voila! My husband and I have laughed and enjoyed each other. It’s rare my brain is quiet, so learning how to keep calm is a huge leap in growth.

I appreciate that tomorrow this technique may not work for me.
I appreciate that if it doesn’t, I will find some new latest greatest way to bring myself back to joy.
I appreciate that I need joy more than the average bear, or, I’m just more aware and determined.
I appreciate that I am a joy expert and have a skill that’s fun to teach.
I appreciate that not everyone wants to unleash their joy.
I appreciate that I’m often wrong.
I appreciate that I love being the Pied Piper and the tune I use to attract a following is joy.
I appreciate that I have no idea who I’m going to meet or who is going to resonate with my ongoing quest to find and spread joy.
I appreciate that I’m getting older.
I appreciate that I’m getting wiser.
I appreciate that I have a husband who encourages my becoming happier and immediately responds by becoming happier, too.
I appreciate that not every day is great.
I appreciate that dips are potholes to try to go around, but if hit one, to just appreciate that pothole for showing how I didn’t react fast enough to detour around it.
I appreciate that my old computer is still working.
I appreciate that I am a joy junkie.
I appreciate that I get so joyous that I don’t want to do the mundane like cook, clean, grocery shop, unpack.
I appreciate that I am a good cook.
I appreciate that I have a house to clean.
I appreciate that I have a husband who likes my cooking.
I appreciate that I like organizing.
I appreciate that grocery shopping especially in Bedford, a half hour drive along a beautiful lake.
I appreciate that we have a house that has a pond three houses away.
I appreciate that the waterfall two blocks away is bigger than ever.
I appreciate that I get so excited about new and different that I’m easily distracted and don’t finish projects.

I appreciate that you have read all this.

Love and Hugs, Kathryn