10 – I almost gave up yesterday

Yesterday I awoke down in the dumps, and by the time I got out of bed felt like I couldn’t succeed at doing the one-woman show, and seriously considered cancelling the upcoming fundraiser for Avalon Sexual Assault Centre in Halifax. The flyers hadn’t been posted, no advertising had been done, so it wasn’t too late to cancel the event.

The thought of cancelling made me feel worse.

Then I had an epiphany: I would blame my husband forever for my not going forward. Then I had another epiphany: I can’t do that to him. I have to go forward. And I have to do a great job and have fun preparing for it.

My mood perked up, but I was still in a bad mood. Determined to shake off the malaise that lingered like sticky glue, I got dressed and went for a walk before dawn. Bundled in my long red coat and gloves, I felt better immediately. From the moment outside and listening to Abraham-Hicks’ audiobook “The Vortex,” I was loving life. Within a few blocks, I felt empowered, joyful, loving the old Victorians and Craftsmen homes.

Of course I could do the show! Of course it would be a success!

This is another example of how getting outside and MOVING revitalizes flagging spirits, energizes the body and makes the impossible seem possible once again.

I didn’t know HOW I would pull off this success, but I knew I wanted to try.

Confidence is mostly faith, trusting that you can achieve something new and huge, and if you can’t, you’re glad you tried and learned lots, made new friends, and perfect just looked different than you expected. In that frame of mind, you can’t lose.

Admittedly, sometimes it takes a strong sugared coffee to boost my spirits when tired or depressed, but after a few sips, I feel better. Amazing how having more energy makes me feel more confident that I can accomplish everyday things and brand new challenges.